Honestly all of season 3 needs to be Azi making up to Crowley for what a massive idiot he’s been for like 6000 years. a silly little dance is just not gonna cut it, I’m talking begging, groveling, tearful apologies in the RAIN kinda shit. let’s see Azi following my boy around for once
Still in pain over the ending of season 2? Me too, but let it be said that I loved the minisodes. Back at the beginning of July I wrote a speculative minisode that, retrospectively, seems really resonant with the season we got. huh.
Written as a screenwriting exercise with @byleranalysis.
hurts so much because HE is the demon. HE is the one who struggles so much with being vulnerable, making connections, FEELING. and then HE GETS BRAVE and he asks Aziraphale. the soft one, the smart one and vulnerable one.. he basically admits to loving him
and he gets rejected.
that’s why i’ve been crying all day. because it was Crowley who said this
Aziraphale is gonna go on his Stede Bonnet-esque journey of self discovery, realizing that Heaven is not his home anymore, it never was, and that the only place he needs to be at is wherever Crowley is.
And of course he’s gonna feel awful about hurting him. And Crowley will be hurt. I surely hope he goes to Nina for comfort while waiting for his angel to bet his head out of his arse.
I know the ending was heart-breaking and I understand Aziraphale’s reasoning, but I’m so glad that Crowley never wavers in his contempt for both heaven and hell. He knows where he’s not wanted and he refuses to be “redeemed” by the institutions that caused him so much trauma and pain in the first place. It’s refreshing.
I cannot imagine how heartbreaking it must be to hear the person you love and trust more than anyone in the universe say that they still have faith in a system that is institutionally broken beyond repair. Not only that, but they actually want to lead this system. It must be devastating, as you’ve come to the conclusion that fixing things from the inside would never be as healing as taking power away from the system altogether by refusing to participate…and it must make you sad for them, since you know the system is not deserving of their hope.
And yet it must be equally devastating for Your Person, who must now believe that you’ve got nothing left to hope for; that you would rather abandon whatever’s wrong instead of trying to right it. Because in their eyes, this is the chance of a lifetime, and you’ve turned it down. ~
The great tragedy of it all ✨ no I am not okay 🙃 Still, I am so grateful to @neil-gaiman and John Finnemore for this scene, despite it being painful. It is so utterly human I don’t know what to do with myself.
[img: Aziraphale tells Crowley “I’ll run [Heaven], you can be my second in command” / Crowley looks at him with disbelief and sadness in one of the best portrayals of emotion I’ve ever seen, thanks David Tennant // both images taken from S02E06 Good Omens 2 on Amazon Prime]
CROWLEY KISSED HIM OUT OF DESPERATION BECAUSE HE KNEW HE ALREADY LOST AZIRAPHALE BECAUSE HE TRIED SO HARD TO COMMUNICATE AND AZIRAPHALE JUST DIDN‘T UNDERSTAND AHHHHHHHHH
